I was starting to panic as I approached my 30th birthday. Unhappy with my job, unhappy in love, and feeling disconnected from others. I would walk around New York City by myself and frequently pass the tiny storefront of a dive bar in Chelsea called the B.M.W. (Beer, Music and Wine) bar. I was intrigued by the musicians playing on the stage and wanted to go in and listen, but I would have to pass by the stage and people would stare.
One Sunday, courage and curiosity won out and I boldly took my two steps forward into that bar. They were having an open mike with guitarists blasting out their two original songs as if it were The Bowery Ballroom. I hadn’t played my guitar in about seven years and never in front of an audience. I was asked if I wanted to try to write my own song and perform it next Sunday. I didn’t know if I could do but I couldn’t wait to go home, dust off my guitar and try.
I did it and it flowed from there. There, I meet the man who was the recording engineer on my CD, which is called “Two Steps Forward”, based on a song I wrote about moving on from your past. He is now my husband. I am now at peace with my career choice, and my relationships.
I often think about what my life would be like if I didn’t step in that bar on that day. Step outside your comfort zone and see what happens.